Ralph Waldo Emerson once famously said that "Once you make a decision the universe conspires to make it happen".

    A time not so long ago, I would have read this and just rolled my eye's. thinking this was absolutely absurd. If I just decide something, events and circumstances will just happen to make it so. Yea right, sure it will?. You see at that time I was a hopeless drinker, sometimes consuming 12-18 beers a day. Masking, not so successfully I came to find out,  and self medicating a recent Bi-Polar diagnosis that was spiraling out of control leaving me manic and then an extremely angry person. I was, at 5'7", tipping the scale at 240 pounds, with high blood pressure and pre-diabetes to boot. Couldn't hold a job to save my ass, financially irresponsible, spending uncontrollably in manic states. My life was completely out of control.  In the last year before the change I had 3 wellness checks called on me to local law enforcement. It was misery and  I had no reason to believe that I had any power to change any of it. I had lost all hope.

   I had resorted to the fact that I probably will always struggle with booze, health, mentall illness for the rest of my life, I had quite honestly given up. But then something happened. I made a decision. It was a decision I had made over a hundred times before. I said in the middle of my worst ever hangover that I wasn't going to drink again. But this hangover was really bad after drinking 12-18 beers for 5 days in a row. I couldnt write my name my hands were shaking so bad, my vision was blurred for 2 days, my blood pressure was 181 over 130. In hindsight I probably should have went to the E.R. And so once again I said, as many do, never again.  Hell, even I didn't really believe it, because I had lied to myself so many times. 

   3 days later as the hangover STARTED to wear off, I re-affirmed my commitment to never drinking again. But again, still didn't really believe it. But then it was 5 days then 10, then 15. It was at day 15 that I made, what I believe to be the kind of decision that I believe became is the biggest factor in transforming ones self.  The decision to make something that you want to change "Non-Negotiable". Sounds easy right, It isn't but it is essential. You see a non negotiable decision is just a wish.  And wishes have out clauses, wishes can be put off. But a Non-Negotiable, that hits different, that's a commitment that requires consistency. Not perfection per se, but commitment

   Soon thereafter I started to get back to the gym, I was 236 pounds of pure swallowed basketball, I resembled a pregnant man. and it was embarrassing. walking into that Gym. In fact the first day back, I sat in my car for 45 minutes. I was out of plave and had no idea where to start, but I made a decision that I was going to use fitness as my catalyst towards recovery and getting my mental health in check. and a week into working out and losing 4 pounds, I made it another "Non Negotiable". I made it a commitment.

     This is where Emerson's quote came alive in my life. By making these decisions unbreakable, the Universe ( Or God or whatever you choose to call it ) Started conspiring for me.  Quitting drinking became easier and easier and is still going strong today. My mental health and Bi=Polar disorder is basically in check. No huge outburst's and no more Sherriff's in the driveway. My family enjoys a sense of peace for the first time in many years. I am now becoming quite adapt in the gym, losing 46 pounds in 4 months ( at 56 years young.) and lifting weight that I havent pushed since high school.  Making a career change into something that aligns with my passions and my calling.  and building this website to share my journey and hopefully show others that they also can have this crazy Universal conspiracy happen to them, simply by making that Unbreakable vow.

    I am not special, I am not a Therapist, never stepped foot into an AA meeting (Not that you shouldn't and if that's the environment that make it stick, please do!) , I am not a professional recovery coach ( Not yet anyway.) I am none of these things, I was just an ordinary 56 year old man from a small farming town, ready to fucking commit already. Putting one foot in front of the other and beating yesterday, go to bed and wake up and do it again. and again, and again

   So, if I can, YOU CAN. If you're like me, you've probably had many tell you you are a lost cause or even worse you've told yourself that...On repeat. Well suffering doesn't have to be the reality anymore. You deserve better, You are worth better. and you can better. and I want to walk alongside you, give you tips. Learn my mistakes before you make them. Share your victories with you. I truly believe that if anyone really wants to make shit happen and will commit to consistancy and just beating yesterday, every day. Miracles will happen.. Not Can, WILL! But that starts with the decision, not the wish. The 100% all in decision. Because once you do that and make it non negotiable, the magic really does start happening.

   So lets do this together. lets make shit happen, lets see your transformation magic happen. Its already in you.  Dont delay, make that choice today. Beat Yesterday.

Yesterday